18 or 23?

So I got the much needed call this afternoon. I was reading and napping and happened to be coherent when I heard the phone ring. The call was from my boss. See I got the job on the 27th of August, but they didn’t have the business until the 7th. I missed the preliminary meeting and have been waiting for him to reschedule since the 1st. Understandably the owner has been running the shop by himself and any other employees who have done it before. I, on the other hand have never worked in the food industry, let alone a coffee shop, so I guess I’m not a highly valued employee at this time. I was anxious, as my earlier post describes, but as many were right, I just had to be patient. Easier said than done, but I only called him once and his wife (co-owner) once. And I was trusting in God, without allowing myself to be lazy/apathetic. My parents on the other hand were nervous wrecks, and making me anxious and feel irresponsible. I got a job for in between, before the place opened… and did training, emailed and called. But I have had to use my parents caring provisions before due to irresponsible choices on my part. I guess they just knew that they were tapped out now, and couldn’t allow for me to rely on them at this time. So rough… so strengthening. I just hate being treated like I’m still 18.

I got an email from a friend, who isn’t living out his faith (if he is a Christian), which said something about God Bless You, which caught my eye. I searched the net for an article on faith, God, belief – that also was entertaining and not too in-your-face. He wrote back that he hasn’t thought about his faith in a long time, and basically he’d like to keep it that way. Apparently he forwarded the article I sent him onto a believing relative, who then asked him about his faith. I’m excited that I got him thinking, and hope that there are no hard feelings – I don’t think there are any. I am keeping my eyes open for other thoughts to share with him, but I also want to read his reply again to see if there’s anything I can say to reveal God to him, and the eminent importance of Eternity. Never going to be an apologist, or a debater… my words aren’t my quality, but I do hope to help a friend.

This evening I was watching an episode of Exchanging Vows. There are two couples that plan each other’s wedding and the couple to get the most elements right based on the information given receives a free honeymoon. The bride of one couple was born-again Christian but was marrying a man who seemed to have a different faith. It was evident that this was causing strife in their relationship. I doubt they’d divorce over it, but I think that they were making sacrifices that diminished the quality of their lives. Where else do we make sacrifices/ become apathetic towards life so that it’s easier to continue as we are? We accept lies because others accept them; they seem like fact. Like the definition of beauty. Of female. That we need fame and riches to be ‘good enough’. Accepting disease/illness being normal/scientific fact. But God did not create us to be ill; he wants for us to have perfect health and is able to heal.

I think of the small things that have kept me from enjoying the Lord, from being Fully Alive, from being in awe of creation, of God’s love, His heart. The hurt, guilt, and lies that have kept me from being the person that I was meant to be. We are in an Epic, one in which there is a rescuer. Praise God that his heart is good. And there is a “happily ever after”. Praise God for eternity. A favourite quote from the book, Epic by John Eldridge, is, “ Surely you see that God is more creative that we can possibly imagine, and romantic to the core”. But there’s more to this than I can put to words (or even thoughts at this hour) so I will leave you now.